Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Feeling drained after intensity.
Things are not bad, for me.
I am not low, not down.
Drained from intensity of being with people, giving out, driving.
Also some with massive needs that leave me knowing so little.
A man with no solutions.
A man opening himself to the terrors of others and want to.

"In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity"
Albert Einstein

Why am I drained?
I think I am working at a different level of intensity. In may last job and ones before, the management stuff was vital but also not as personally intense. Now I think it was good to do a mix. Now I am not in management (which I like) but the people thing is sat on my lap all the time.

"only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go'
ts eliot

Today I am reminded that the potential of people to enjoy life and yet share deep depths of their souls at the same time. We can do great things and touching hurts inside us and in our interpersonal relationships too.

Today I learned that. Today I loved that. Today I have touched heaven in relationship terms.

I do not want to impose my certainties on others. I have only a few outside my own experiences. They did happen.
The work of facilitating freedom for others cannot include imposing certainties on these beautiful humans.
People must have freedom to reach their full potential.
No matter what major issues that there are in a humans life, the job is to help to create a climate of freedom seeking.

Don't tell anyone but I would love all the people I know to latch onto God and fall in love. Become a lover and start making love in the world. Being a disciple of Jesus has been the best decision I have ever made, BUT my love relationship, however positive for me, must not be oppression to someone else.

Look around you – there are people around you.
Maybe you will remember one of them all your life and later eat your heart out because you didn’t make use of the opportunity to ask them questions.
Alexander Solzhenitsyn