Tuesday, December 16, 2003

It is a bit late night-ish for me
I have been busy with things
funny time of year for you?

I see faces in the streets and the shops. Strained faces. Tense faces. Frowning faces. Few smiling faces.

I have toiling with how to run a group or three this week with the Christmas vibe. I work in hostels with people who are homeless and are uncertain if there maybe a chance of being somewhere else on Christmas day. That uncertainty is worse than the certainty of even 'no hope'. The ones there on Christmas day will be the ones without another option

How to do something in a group is a challenge. The context is restless humans. The context is lack of concentration.
I have just prepared something and will develop it in context tomorrow ...... and still I will have to 'busk it' like crazy. Calmly of course!

I still have stirred feelings from the blog I did last night. The stirring of the soul made me conect with my Mother who went through some tough times and yet was wondrous and beautiful to the end. All four sons were around the bed when she died. I have good feelings about the death.

The other feelings in the yesternight 'stir-cry' .............. I will say they were about 'emotional deprivation'.
Mine of course but also the people I recalled. I have more connections in my soul which makes me feel Christmas more deeply. They are a bit below the surface but the next few days could dig them out.