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Feelings ……. Often start like this don’t I ………………… every group I lead has a different climate and a different membership and …….. EVERYTHING is different.
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(Old regular blog clickers ignore this ……. I work and specialize in working with groups of mainly young adults with special needs. I work with them with a wholistic aim …… to aid their development in body mind and spirit …….. I facilitate a learning process which is dynamic and not not not predictable. And I love it. And I love them …… hmmmm)
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There is preciousness in every moment and also hurt. I am sensitive to the vibes and the comments and I want to be like that. It is a chosen route. It is a desire. I want to feel this stuff……… Incarnation.
Most recent group is full of life and a team of people entering with a few drinks inside did change the environment.
There was little commitment to opening up . Different from yesterweek. Different is the word I keep using eh?
Amongst the group is someone who does not respect me. Loads of abnoxious attitude and I think …………… #an abnoixious person is a hurting perso# so I swich from “I really don’t like this human” to “I don’t like the behaviour of this person – but I will love the person even though I have this distaste about the behaviour”.
I am thinking, evaluating, sussing the situation now, right now. This is why I blog …………………. To express my soul and work it out ……… becoming ……………… incarnation.
I cannot suss the person just mentioned.
I see a superficiality and a big front of fun.
Maybe there is no other skill in life skills terms.
Maybe there is no sensitivity other basic individual pleasure.
I suss a basic mistrust and ice skating approach to anyone older.
My thoughts are now about what my strategy is to help that person burst the balloon around their emotions and see beyond the bubble. A big help is that there are so many others around who respect me and, despite my weaknesses on vivid show, have some sort of positive dynamic exchange with me. We are not peers. We are not friends. But there is a love there …….. levels and smatterings and gushes but ……….. it is love I believe ……… in the depth of shalom kind a love.
So the things on my feelings agenda
1 influences of alcohol by a dominant sub-group
2 one person in the superficiality/obnoxious behaviour department
3 feeling a feeling of failure(knowing that this is ok but I need to admit it)
4 you are very very nice people
I feel better now in a matter of minutes because I have turned the feelings and the group work scenario over.
Love that will not let me go
Love that will not let me go
Lord have mercy
Lord have mercy
I think I am going to hate this Mel Gibson film about Jesus. ( 28th march in UK)
Good Friday cracks me up as I journey again through that pain. I do it and feel it. I want to feel it and live through it BUT …… I don’t know if I can watch it on a 60 foot screen in the west end of London.
“Nothing ever comes without some kind of fight, we've got to kick the darkness untill it bleeds daylight.”
Bono U2 …………….. nicked from Bruce Cockburn
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